I often get asked how I began to meditate. Looking back over 20 years now, it has been quite the journey. Whether you are a seasoned meditator, a meditation instructor or new to meditation, it is my hope that my writings can help you to open up to the healing I experience and "see" when I close my eyes.
For most of my teenage years, I was on a health quest, I remember my mother and I trekking from doctor to doctor, trying to find answers that could bring balance to my body, specifically my reproductive system. I had been diagnosed with polycystic ovaries, my main symptom was that my cycle never came. It was devastating for me and very sad for my family.
At the age of 14, medical professionals declared that all sorts of side effects would happen to me, the highlights included: obesity, acne, and the most painful being there was a probable chance I would not be able to have children, ever.
Our quest took place over a decade in the 90's and it included conventional doctors who decided inducing my cycle was the way to go (which resulted in intense mood swings and rapid weight gain) as well as visits to out of state specialists and multiple holistic, homeopathic, ayurvedic, naturopath doctors and years upon years of numerous alternative treatments.
The bottomline - nothing was helping on a deep level to heal my body.
Fast forward to the summer of 2000, I was 22 years old and I had just graduated from University of Miami's School of Music with a degree in Vocal Performance and had made a powerful decision to dedicate my life to spreading the wisdom of Kabbalah which I had begun to study in 1998. My new chapter started with a spiritual trip to visit the holy ancient sites of the Kabbalists in Israel with a group of students organized by The Kabbalah Centre. The night before I left for overseas, I asked my Spiritual Mentor, Karen Berg, The Founder of The Kabbalah Centre for consul regarding my polycystic ovaries diagnosis.
Karen was so simple about it - she asked me if I was planning to have children soon, I answered that I would love to in the future although at the moment I didn't even have a boyfriend! Karen suggested I "visualize white light through my body with no blockages, only light."
And I did.
Every day on the trip to Israel, I would practice visualizing white light through my body. I loved how it felt to close my eyes and imagine white light through my body and I even meditated in the healing ritual baths throughout Israel as per Karen's suggestion as well.
And guess what...
On the last day of our trip, after the last ritual bath, my cycle came naturally for the first time ever in my life and since then, I have my a cycle each month, naturally.
My beginning with meditation was to simply visualize white light through my body, and this simple practice healed my body.
Fast forward now to 2019, my doctors don't see any signs of polycystic ovaries, I am a mother who has conceived and birthed 4 children naturally, and I share the power of healing music & meditations with the world everyday in the hopes that others will learn tools to know in the miraculous power of their mind / body / soul connection.
What I have since discovered on my journey as a Kabbalah Instructor and Meditation Guide is that we all need healing. Whether it be on the physical, spiritual, emotional or soul level, we all need healing.
Our world needs healing and I am passionate about spreading a deeper message about how individuals can learn to access healing light, just as I did in 2000 when Karen Berg guided me to experience that meditation can go beyond the benefit of temporary "relaxation" or "stress relief".
Have you experienced the healing power of meditation? Would you like to try? Share your experiences and questions in the comments.